This time of year it is easy for me to become anxious. Holidays. On tope of the regular hustle and bustle holidays were often a time in my past life when my abuse would take place. I am amazed although the abuse happend as a young girl, I still undo thoughts from keeping me in a prison.
However; I'm determined to enjoy this crazy time of year, stay peaceful (without zapping myself) and embrace it with joy. For the past 5 years, I see each holiday season more and more enjoyable and a gift to truly embrace - healing does take place!!!
A miracle.
This is why I am more confident than ever my soul will continue to taste freedom...
My real issue with holidays is control and liking things neat...and in there place...and with holiday's come family...comes people...comes "messes". I know for many this does not hit home but for me I work on daily to "let go" and go "with it"....because for so long to feel okay I had to be the one in control.
I'm learning I'm still in control even when I'm not directly - a powerful truth breaking through my past bondage.
After I read a post on A Holy Experience, I knew I must start my journal (www.aholyexperience.com)
I'm challenging myself to write down 3 blessings each day...for a year...and some day when my daughter is grown and off to college - I will give it to her...and hopefully it can be a simple way to remind her we go through life with 2 choices:
Giving thanks
or
Complaining setbacks
I want my daughter to look at my journey of giving thanks and nothing short of that, because my days are numbered and I want to make each one count for the glory of God!
And with that...I'm off to fill in my first entry.
Blossom & be blessed!
xoxo
