This morning my dear Grandpa, Willard, died and is now celebrating life with Jesus and his daughter that he lost 30 years ago. Sweet Grandma, I pray your day comes soon because I know you miss Mary and your sweetheart. I have no doubt as soon as you get to heaven with Grandpa, he will give you a big kiss and start to tell everyone how in love he is with you, and be holding your hand the whole time as he is telling your love story!
Dear Sweet Grandpa,
Thank you for showing me what life is about and teaching me priceless lessons in life...to greet each day with a kiss to your spouse and with God's Word; to always treat your spouse like a king and queen - no matter how old you are, to take time out to say I love you - no matter how many times; to hold your spouses hand every chance you get, to sit long enough on a sofa relaxing so you have time to hold someone on your lap; to share the love of God with anyone; to walk away from earthly success at a young age; to take care of whatever you have like it is the best and never leave a mess behind; to greet each soul with the mercy God gives us each day; to be confident in you who are not in what you do; to never apologize who you are or where you are from; dress like you have respect for yourself; walk with a mission, and to be excited about the day God gives you...Grandpa - If Sophie and Cole have your wisdom, zeal for God, life and their spouse, confidence, and integrity like you did, they will impact peoples lives in ways that are not measured but that are eternal...just like you did everyday you lived and still do...
I love you dearly and if I could, I would have breakfast with you one more time at Millies.
Forever proud of you,
Your Granddaughter.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
My Prayer
"Dear Jesus, You are my Redeemer and Healer. You are the Creator of my soul...You know my heart and desires better than me and help me to remember that as I start each day. I trust You as my Creator to consume my soul with Your joys and truth...and not lies that have half truth.
Give me eyes and ears of compassion as you give me breath each day to live. Let me embrace the moments you give me to live, to act upon them with mercy, wisdom and discernment, all for the glory of Your Kingdom and to bless my children as I spend hours with them each day.
Thank you for being bigger than my cross...a cross I will never be able to comprehend how heavy it is because of your divine love for me.
I praise you for being my King, my Prophet and my Priest.
In Jesus Holy Name, Amen"
Give me eyes and ears of compassion as you give me breath each day to live. Let me embrace the moments you give me to live, to act upon them with mercy, wisdom and discernment, all for the glory of Your Kingdom and to bless my children as I spend hours with them each day.
Thank you for being bigger than my cross...a cross I will never be able to comprehend how heavy it is because of your divine love for me.
I praise you for being my King, my Prophet and my Priest.
In Jesus Holy Name, Amen"
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Revoluntionary Road
Last night Ken and I watched the movie, Revolutionary Road. Powerful movie. Any women or man looking for the next house, job, child, bible study, or thing to run to for worth and fulfillment - watch the movie. The movie shows what happens when 2 souls stop pursuing each other and pursue something else(including children)...ultimately they choose disaster for themselves and an empty pit to land in.
The movie makes me think of an article Ken recently gave me by Tim Keller, "Hell"
In short, Tim Keller states we choose hell each day when we choose to serve ourselves and not others...and when we choose ourselves we ultimately create a living hell because we are never going to be satisfied and eventually become so self absorbed we kill our souls. His article could have been read on the movie.
Anyone who knows our family well, knows we are going through our own Revolutionary Road...Without knowing it at the time, but now able to see it, 10 years ago Ken and I were on the road looking for the next big house in a manicured suburb...Somehow God grabbed our hearts and let us watch other peoples hell burst so we didn't have to keep digging our empty hole.
I hope all of our Revolutionary Roads are roads of revival not dead end roads. It is natural for any marriage, regardless of beliefs, to turn into empty pits if 2 people are not intentional to keep a marriage on sweet fire.
Sweet blessings as I keep my road with Ken sweet each day and nothing less!
The movie makes me think of an article Ken recently gave me by Tim Keller, "Hell"
In short, Tim Keller states we choose hell each day when we choose to serve ourselves and not others...and when we choose ourselves we ultimately create a living hell because we are never going to be satisfied and eventually become so self absorbed we kill our souls. His article could have been read on the movie.
Anyone who knows our family well, knows we are going through our own Revolutionary Road...Without knowing it at the time, but now able to see it, 10 years ago Ken and I were on the road looking for the next big house in a manicured suburb...Somehow God grabbed our hearts and let us watch other peoples hell burst so we didn't have to keep digging our empty hole.
I hope all of our Revolutionary Roads are roads of revival not dead end roads. It is natural for any marriage, regardless of beliefs, to turn into empty pits if 2 people are not intentional to keep a marriage on sweet fire.
Sweet blessings as I keep my road with Ken sweet each day and nothing less!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Dream Today
This song speaks deeply to my heart. Hearing this song and yet seeing the life I am able to embrace today brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my face.
Sophie and Cole, don't ever stop dreaming.
Sweet blessings!
Sophie and Cole, don't ever stop dreaming.
Sweet blessings!
Worshipful Trust
When an individual is abused - in any form, mildly to severely - one of the gifts destroyed is trust, and understandably so. I find in my journey, just about the time I feel like I understand what it means to really trust, something comes up that shakes my core trust again - which tells me how often I am not trusting in my Redeemer but something else.
This week my mom sent me a card and on in side it read:
"Trust is an act of worship...."
These words jump out at me because worship is something I put alot of emphasis on and take seriously in my daily walk. I never look at my battle with a lack of trust (typically taken out on Ken and God) as a place I am weakening my worship each day with God. Seeing the words, "an act of worship" gives me revival to keep chipping away at the lies that try to destroy my trust and sweet communion with Ken and God.
When I look at my soul more deeply with my lack of trusting God and His Word in my life, 3 areas jump out at me:
1. Contentment with my body - there is always something I want to make better
2. The amount of money I want to give back to God - the constant battle of "Life is all about God or alot about ME"
3. Daily worries - Why don't I remind myself if God sees strands of hair fall from my head, then He certainly is a part of bigger details in my life and is consistently orchestrating an intimate plan for me that is for His Glory and my good - regardless of my present day circumstances.
As I think about going to worship God tomorrow at church, I love the idea of surrendering all of my insecurities and handing them over to Him and saying, "God, as an offering of worship today, I give you my trust today with everything in my life - minor and major."
Sweet blessings from my heart to yours.
This week my mom sent me a card and on in side it read:
"Trust is an act of worship...."
These words jump out at me because worship is something I put alot of emphasis on and take seriously in my daily walk. I never look at my battle with a lack of trust (typically taken out on Ken and God) as a place I am weakening my worship each day with God. Seeing the words, "an act of worship" gives me revival to keep chipping away at the lies that try to destroy my trust and sweet communion with Ken and God.
When I look at my soul more deeply with my lack of trusting God and His Word in my life, 3 areas jump out at me:
1. Contentment with my body - there is always something I want to make better
2. The amount of money I want to give back to God - the constant battle of "Life is all about God or alot about ME"
3. Daily worries - Why don't I remind myself if God sees strands of hair fall from my head, then He certainly is a part of bigger details in my life and is consistently orchestrating an intimate plan for me that is for His Glory and my good - regardless of my present day circumstances.
As I think about going to worship God tomorrow at church, I love the idea of surrendering all of my insecurities and handing them over to Him and saying, "God, as an offering of worship today, I give you my trust today with everything in my life - minor and major."
Sweet blessings from my heart to yours.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
For June
I'm reading a daily journal that challenges me where I get and go for self-worth, respect, value and affirmation. It challenges me how serisouly I take the words of God and how much I allow myself to rest in the palms of God and not rest in false idols - the idols that appear valuable in my life but at the end of the day are idols because I put more emphasis on them than my Creator's view and appreciation of me.
My June focus:
Take the words of God as seriously as I take words from close friends and dear family.
I'm beginning to see as I study the word of God, I create so much anxiety in my life when I add to the word of God and not take it for face value.
Sweet blessings from my heart to yours.
My June focus:
Take the words of God as seriously as I take words from close friends and dear family.
I'm beginning to see as I study the word of God, I create so much anxiety in my life when I add to the word of God and not take it for face value.
Sweet blessings from my heart to yours.
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