Monday, November 30, 2009

"Goodnight Grandma...

Dear Sweet Grandma,

I know your smile will greet me each morning as the sun rises...your hugs will cover me with the clouds over me...and your spirit will warm me as the sunsets each night.

I smile to think of you with Jesus right now.

Thank you for sharing your wisdom and love for God with me. I will miss sitting next to you in church, eating strawberry crepes with you and most of all - miss your 10 minute phone calls each week. And I promise as soon as I see you, I will bring one more caramel cappuccino.

Thank you.

Thank you for teaching me to dance through life. Watching you dance in life taught me never to settle for just walking - no matter how hard the journey became. Your ability to always walk through valleys and come out stronger, taught me I don't need to stay in mine but rise above them.

Thank you.

Most of all - thank you for teaching me the word of God as my compass in life. I love starting and ending my day with my bible - just like you showed me and did in your life.

Thank you.

I won't say goodbye - but goodnight...

...I will see you the morning"

I love you,

Sweet beautiful grandma,

Amy Cherise

Goodnight Grandma

Dear Sweet Grandma,

I know your smile will greet me each morning as the sun rises...your hugs will cover me with the clouds over me...and your spirit will warm me as the sunsets each night.

I smile to think of you with Jesus right now.

Thank you for sharing your wisdom and love for God with me. I will miss sitting next to you in church, eating strawberry crepes with you and most of all - miss your 10 minute phone calls each week. And I promise as soon as I see you, I will bring one more caramel cappuccino.

Thank you.

Thank you for teaching me to dance through life. Watching you dance in life taught me never to settle for just walking - no matter how hard the journey became. Your ability to always walk through valleys and come out stronger, taught me I don't need to stay in mine but rise above them.

Thank you.

Most of all - thank you for teaching me the word of God as my compass in life. I love starting and ending my day with my bible - just like you showed me and did in your life.

Thank you.

I won't say goodbye - but goodnight...

...I will see you the morning"

I love you,

Sweet beautiful grandma,

Amy Cherise

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My Happiness

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, times still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that those obstacles were my life. this perspective helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure each moment you have and remember that times waits for no one." SOUZA

I realize now my unforeseen abuse, for years, was a cloud hanging over my head. As Thanksgiving comes near this year, I celebrate with a new spirit...a spirit for a renewed appreciation for the mercies from God - and my family - given to me each day - as I learn to embrace happiness and learn to step into new shoes of freedom and not fear.

"Thank you Jesus. I am broken and you make me whole"

Sweetest blessings from my heart to yours this Thanksgiving!

PS. My favorite line from Cole after we move to Reynolds: "We did it! We can do anything!!"

Monday, November 23, 2009

My Happiness

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, times still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that those obstacles were my life. this perspective helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure each moment you have and remember that times waits for no one." SOUZA

I realize now my unforeseen abuse, for years, was a cloud hanging over my head. As Thanksgiving comes near this year, I celebrate with a new spirit...a spirit for a renewed appreciation for the mercies from God - and my family - given to me each day - as I learn to embrace happiness and learn to step into new shoes of freedom and not fear.

"Thank you Jesus. I am broken and you make me whole"

Sweetest blessings from my heart to yours this Thanksgiving!

PS. My favorite line from Cole after we move to Reynolds: "We did it! We can do anything!!"

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Favorite Book

One of my favorites:

THE REASON FOR GOD by Tim Keller.

www.thereasonforGod.com

Sweetest Blessings!!

Trusting Still

I'm still learning to give all of my trust to God. Trusting His ways over my ways. Trusting His words. Trusting His thoughts. Trusting the Bible like it really is all true. I find myself selectively trusting God. It is easy to follow to God when I sense following His ways makes sense for me...it is another story when His ways get in the way of my ideas.

Most often my ways clash when God when I am wanting to fulfill my self with something. When I am at that crossroad in the road - I try to stop and realize my shallow way of fulfilling myself doesn't compare to what God can fulfill with me -but those moments take trust!! Those are the times I need to jump off my cliff. Deep breath. I need to jump of my cliff trusting myself. And looking back on my journey - every time I have jumped off my cliff - I don't ever remember a time when I wasn't 'caught'.

Moving to Reynolds was for sure a time of jumping off of my cliff. In spite of us wanting to see our family at Reynolds - it was still uncomfortable for us to break out of our suburbia mold. And now that we are at Reynolds - I'll never regret us jumping off of our 'comfort' cliff.

I love showing Sophie and Cole how vulnerable it is live a life radically trusting God. Vulnerable - but oh so worth it.

"Thank you, Jesus. Thank you for loving me so much you want to see my soul in freedom."

Sweetest blessings!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

3 Days

T3 Days and movers & packers are here. Unreal. Beyond excited to make Reynolds Plantation our home full time.

I'm still absorbing our house actually sold in less than 3 months!! Ever since we bought a place a few years ago, unexpectedly, both of our hearts fell in love and felt led to have our family live at Reynolds full time. Now the door is wide open!!!

If I would have moved to Reynolds a few years ago, I would have gone for the wrong reasons. I would have gone wanting to escape from all of my fears and have it be a new distraction...in stead it is freeing since I have shed my layers of pain. I am not going to distract my self but let my self 'be' and embrace moments in a new journey -

walking hand in hand with Ken...
not in front of him...
not in back of him...
but side by side.

The way walking with a soul mate should be like.

This move feels so vulnerable - it is one thing to move when we have a new job but another story when we are making an intentional move! I'm not sure if I could be so excited if Ken and I did not trust and support each other the way we do. The trust we experience has been learned in the past few years with both of us giving 101% - worth every single tear and smiled shared.

Freedom. Excited. Vulnerable. Thankful - The way to embrace my days.

Sweetest blessings from my heart to yours.