Vulnerable Trust

This week I chased my biggest idol - spending. Another way to say it, I chased false control, which boils down to a lack of trust in God for me. It was also no coincidence I knew God was tugging my heart to trust Him with 'my' children. I came face to face with that because if Sophie was to do AOA with Cole next year, I needed to order her materials this week- which really showed me I could no longer rely on a fantastic prep school to school either of my children.

And yet once I purchased all of the materials, and on one side was like "What in the world are we doing?" - the other side of me felt more freedom than I have experienced all year...

I feel like a child sometimes...kicking and screaming and not wanting to follow Gods leading in my path - because my reasons always seem so just - and then when I finally surrender and obey, my heart has more freedom than I knew was possible to carry.

This journey will definitely be a new direction for the four of us but who said life needed to lived by the books? Sometimes I feel like I treat my kids like products, and forget they are not in a box, nor do they want to become comfortable in a box.

Parenting to strengthen my childrens voices can be emotionally exhausting and time consuming at times; but to keep them in the box would be silencing their passions and voices that God gave them before they were given to Ken & I.

My biggest passion in life is to be a voice for the voiceless...and once again, God is showing me there are two voices that are more important than the millions of voices being silenced right now. I hope this story can encourage you to fight for the more important people in your life, no matter what the journey entails you to undertake for them. And as I say that, I daily have to remind myself to vulnerably rest in freedom while not shopping...it is so bittersweet...

Before I close today, a quick note to my lover: no worries...you and I will always come before our 2 angels - no matter what type of 'car' they are driving for school!!

Sweet blessings from my heart to yours today.