This time of year it is easy for me to become anxious. Holidays. On tope of the regular hustle and bustle holidays were often a time in my past life when my abuse would take place. I am amazed although the abuse happend as a young girl, I still undo thoughts from keeping me in a prison.
However; I'm determined to enjoy this crazy time of year, stay peaceful (without zapping myself) and embrace it with joy. For the past 5 years, I see each holiday season more and more enjoyable and a gift to truly embrace - healing does take place!!!
A miracle.
This is why I am more confident than ever my soul will continue to taste freedom...
My real issue with holidays is control and liking things neat...and in there place...and with holiday's come family...comes people...comes "messes". I know for many this does not hit home but for me I work on daily to "let go" and go "with it"....because for so long to feel okay I had to be the one in control.
I'm learning I'm still in control even when I'm not directly - a powerful truth breaking through my past bondage.
After I read a post on A Holy Experience, I knew I must start my journal (www.aholyexperience.com)
I'm challenging myself to write down 3 blessings each day...for a year...and some day when my daughter is grown and off to college - I will give it to her...and hopefully it can be a simple way to remind her we go through life with 2 choices:
Giving thanks
or
Complaining setbacks
I want my daughter to look at my journey of giving thanks and nothing short of that, because my days are numbered and I want to make each one count for the glory of God!
And with that...I'm off to fill in my first entry.
Blossom & be blessed!
xoxo
1 comment:
Amy, for some reason I checked bookmarks and had your blog! It was no accident as I read your entries this year. I feel blessed and connected to you as we are. God is good. We don't understand as we look through the glass darkly, but He can use all things for good. It is easy to look back and see God's Hand but it is still too easy for me to doubt the step ahead at times.
I seem to be perpetually behind. I need to remember that I am Randy's wife! It is hard for me to pare down. I do love people. Grandchildren are a treasure. I want to do more than I seen to be able to. Thank you for your friendship. I pray for you.
Love in Christ,
Karen
Happy thanksgiving!
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