Worshipful Trust

When an individual is abused - in any form, mildly to severely - one of the gifts destroyed is trust, and understandably so. I find in my journey, just about the time I feel like I understand what it means to really trust, something comes up that shakes my core trust again - which tells me how often I am not trusting in my Redeemer but something else.

This week my mom sent me a card and on in side it read:
"Trust is an act of worship...."

These words jump out at me because worship is something I put alot of emphasis on and take seriously in my daily walk. I never look at my battle with a lack of trust (typically taken out on Ken and God) as a place I am weakening my worship each day with God. Seeing the words, "an act of worship" gives me revival to keep chipping away at the lies that try to destroy my trust and sweet communion with Ken and God.

When I look at my soul more deeply with my lack of trusting God and His Word in my life, 3 areas jump out at me:
1. Contentment with my body - there is always something I want to make better
2. The amount of money I want to give back to God - the constant battle of "Life is all about God or alot about ME"
3. Daily worries - Why don't I remind myself if God sees strands of hair fall from my head, then He certainly is a part of bigger details in my life and is consistently orchestrating an intimate plan for me that is for His Glory and my good - regardless of my present day circumstances.

As I think about going to worship God tomorrow at church, I love the idea of surrendering all of my insecurities and handing them over to Him and saying, "God, as an offering of worship today, I give you my trust today with everything in my life - minor and major."

Sweet blessings from my heart to yours.